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Baby Dust: 
A Novel about Miscarriage and Pregnancy Loss

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Procedure Descriptions

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Surgical Procedures

If you opted for a D&C or D&E, first you will have the procedure done. Remember that if you can, insist on some time to gather loved ones around you or to get yourself together before you do this. Don't let anyone panic you into rushing into a procedure you're not ready for. This is usually all done in one day, but if you were farther along than 14 weeks, it may be a two-day procedure, with the laminaria sticks being inserted the first day, the dilation occurring overnight, and the procedure being done the next day. If your pregnancy was very young, you may get a dilation cream instead, or even not need dilation if your cervix is already slightly open as the miscarriage is beginning.

The surgery will be pretty fuzzy to you, due to the drugs and anesthesia. You may be put completely under, or you may be given a local and laughing gas. If you are awake, you may feel some pricking or sucking sensations, but it will not be uncomfortable. You will spend a couple of hours in a recovery room to wait on the anesthesia to wear off. Some doctors will prescribe antibiotics as a precaution; but many will not unless you develop symptoms of an infection.

During the next few days, you will likely experience the following:
Mild to medium pain in your abdomen or tenderness. Most women report no pain at all, but those pain pills are not prescribed for nothing. Hopefully you will not need them.
Deep muscle soreness in your thighs from your position during the procedure.
Mild to heavy bleeding with some mild cramping.
Sun sensitivity, nausea, and weakness from the strong antibiotics.
Heavy groggy feeling, from the anesthesia and your sadness.

Call your doctor if you experience the following:
Any sort of abdominal pain after the second day. You could be developing an infection. Don't panic though, just call and you will get a stronger antibiotic and a check up.
A fever that starts to approach 100 degrees. Again, infection is a possibility.
A sudden stoppage of bleeding, then severe cramps, almost as if you are in labor. This happened to me, and I can't tell you how I panicked. I ended up passing tissue, then the bleeding resumed normally. I called the doctor and they checked on me every few hours at home, but I didn't end up having to go in (good thing, since I was 150 miles away).
Pain, flu feelings, or overall debilitating sickness that last more than a day or two.

 

Natural Miscarriage

If you choose to wait it out for a natural miscarriage, you will most likely have a difficult wait. It may not seem real; you will harbor hope that it will never happen. Eventually the cramping and bleeding will begin, and you may react with severe grief and panic. You may feel ridiculous or morbid trying to catch tissue in a jar or plastic bag for testing. All these things are fine. Do the best you can. If all goes well, the cramps will subside and a regular blood flow will resume. Keep in mind that you may not pass all the tissue and will have to have a D&C to empty your uterus.

During the next few days you will likely experience the following:
Cramps and bleeding, sometimes quite painful and heavy.
Passage of tissue, resembling large blood clots in the earliest weeks up to pinkish/grayish material, possibly even in a discernable sack. Keep in mind that a three-week old embryo is only 2 mm long about like this: _ and you probably aren't seeing the actually baby, but only the yolk sack or placenta. A four-week old embryo is about a quarter inch long, more like this: __ , still probably impossible to see. Even a six-week old embryo is less than an inch long. Try not to traumatize yourself by searching for the baby. Believe me, I understand the impulse. Not seeing my baby was traumatizing in itself. And mine was fully formed at 20 weeks. Just do the best you can. If you collect the tissue, it may be refrigerated until you take it for testing. If this is your first miscarriage, it is not necessary to keep the tissue. It is rarely tested in this case. Any tissue that falls into the toilet is not testable, so you do not need to retrieve it.

Call your doctor if you experience the following:
Any sort of abdominal pain that lasts beyond the cramping stage. You could be developing an infection. Don't panic though, just call and you will get an antibiotic and a check up.
A fever that starts to approach 100 degrees. Again, infection is a possibility.
Cramps beyond endurance. You may need a pain medication or a D&C.
Bleeding that comes heavy and fast, soaking a pad every few hours, for more than three days. If the bleeding does not slow down after that, you may have tissue that is causing hemorrhaging, and you will need a D&C.
Bleeding that lasts longer than two weeks. A D&C may be necessary.
Bleeding that starts and stops and starts and stops for weeks. Some tissue is still causing hormones to be created, and you will need intervention.

 

Everyone will feel some of the following as the days and weeks wear on:
A mild start and stop bleeding pattern up to two weeks. You should have a new cycle, unrelated to the first bleeding, between 4 and 7 weeks after the miscarriage. I didn't get a fresh cycle until the last day of the 7th week, so don't panic if you are still waiting. A few women need a Provera shot to jump start their cycle, but this is not terribly unusual. Call your doctor if you go much longer than 7 weeks, just for your peace of mind. You may want to start charting your temperatures after the bleeding stops to see where you are. Remember that you can get pregnant that first cycle, so use contraceptive. For more information, see the section on trying again.
Snappy, unhappy, angry feelings. Wanting to be left alone or wanting to talk about what happened with everyone you know.
A sense that it isn't real, that it never happened.
Hypersensitivity to sad TV or reading materials, being revolted or angry about happy scenes of families, seeing symbols in everything you do, from gardening to dreams to what you eat.
Anger at the baby, wishing you never knew about the pregnancy, wanting to throw out all the baby reminders, or clinging to the little angel you lost, thinking about him/her nonstop, wanting everyone to recognize that the baby was real.
Anger and/or jealousy of other pregnant women, even friends and family, to the point you don't want to even talk with them. This is okay. I felt this way for several months.